Life is fragile, and we can never be idealistic.


Have been reading Johann S Lee(finished his 3 books already) and its got kinda a big impact on myself, to a certain level unhealthy I daresay?

I feel like I'm a source of comfort for James, but I know it cannot stay that way for long. I dont wanna be a character in a melodrama that might happen anytime now once the other guy finds out.

On the other hand, Ive delved too much into lomography, its like a newfound passion that distracts me from the tough training in army, the harsh realities of life. True, its one expensive hobby, but its comforting, especially now that I've gotta find my own sources of comfort.

I'm in OCS now, crossed over 5 days before my passing out parade, unfortunately. Training's much tougher, upped by one level compared to SCS, but maybe its so that it makes the bar, the sword, and the commission (9th April) much more worth it.

Sigh.

Last update was mopre than 2 months ago. whoa.

so yea, we've been occupied with NS, with shit like grandslam and field camp and CSB and whatnots. and life's pretty much that, besides getting my weekends burned with every single live firing those people can think of.


other than that, life's been pretty okay, seeing as NS is the only thing that spices it up. when would you get your bunkmate to start yelling at you and throwing random stuff, or meet someone who's more retarded than he really looks. or what about an egoistic, narcisstic bastard who stares at himself close to 20 times a day in the mirror.

see, thats what makes NS so interesting, meaningful, and a bitch. you meet so many characters that you thought only existed in movies, or your typical 9 o'clock channel 8 drama.

but that's beside the point because eventually NS makes you a more matured and patient man, and you eventually see the world in a different light. at least thats what it has done to me.

the countdown's already begin. I've got less than 2 weeks left to taiwan, and I'm not exactly looking forward to the prospect. it's gonna be my first ramadan and syawal overseas, WITHOUT family and I'm not sure how I'm gonna cope with it. and if you tell me I've got my 'family' with me over there, training together, balls to you. what family. and to think that I'd be in a foregin land doing my eid prayers surrounded by people whose language I cant even speak properly, it gives me mixed emotions. Im sad that Im so far away from home, but Im excited to be able to spend such a glorious day in a special way, probably, a once-in-a-lifetime moment.

hey, Ive got issues too.





enough about NS. Im not even prepared to turn 19, dammit.

Define life.


NS. fml.

True, I've got a lot of time to think about what life is all about and what I wanna do in the future.